I have this weird thing where I associate certain people in my life with actual celebrities. It could be some level of bat-shit crazy on my part. Hey, I never claimed to be “normal” –> what’s this normal you speak of?? But there are certain people in my life that remind me of celebrities, and I’m rather comforted when I can’t be with these loved ones in person… but I can find them on a tv show or movie.
Sometimes, it’s because they truly look like these people, other times, it’s the voice or their mannerisms. Occasionally, all three of these characteristics are attributed to my loved ones.
For example, I have a Julia Roberts — my former choir teacher doesn’t necessarily look like her, but her confidence and attitude, even her voice on occasion… love them both! I also have a Sally Field, an Anne Hathaway, a Jennifer Lawrence, Will Ferrell, even Jim Cramer from Mad Money, Roseanne and Brittany Spears. This is just off the top of my head… there’s more. Oh yes… my fuckedup brain turns just about any gathering into a virtual red carpet of insanity.
But the first celeb I associated with a loved one goes waaaaaaay back to the 80s.
I know I didn’t get most of the jokes on The Golden Girls as a kid — but as soon as I saw Rose Nylund — I immediately thought of my Grandma. My Grandma was Betty White… sweetest woman on earth, animal lover, funny, and honestly, smarter than most people thought; Grandma even looked like Betty White on some level.
And then there was Judi… ever since I saw Dame Judi Dench in GoldenEye, I couldn’t think of anyone but my Granni. Her confidence, the sharp-as-a-tack attitude, her voice (no, my Granni wasn’t a Brit, but seriously… the deep, soothing tone of her voice + the inflections = my Granni) and her look, something about her eyes — for some reason Judi Dench and my Granni will always be connected in my warped little mind.
Now that my Granni & Grandma have passed… I thought it might be difficult to watch anything starring Betty White or Judi Dench.
I was wrong.
These hard-working actresses are providing me with an incredible amount of comfort and therapy.
Now, I crack open a beer, tune into a classic episode of Golden Girls, Mary Tyler Moore or even Hot in Cleveland and feel like I’m having a beer with Grandma while I laugh at all of Betty White’s antics. I may tear up a few times, not only from laughter… but because it reminds me of a “Grandma” memory. Possibly a memory I wouldn’t have thought of on my own.
I can choose from 7 Bond films to find Judi Dench… along with a plethora of other movies. The Dame’s in everything! Chocolat remains a HUGE favorite, for so many reasons — number one being the delicious Johnny Depp, but Judi is a close second. I can tune into any of these movies, crack open a beer, and I’m drinking with my Granni. Again, the tears may flow, but they are happy tears; as I hear Judi Dench speak, I remember something special about the many deep conversations I would share with my Granni.
I may not be able to hug them or have face-to-face conversations with my Grandma or Granni today, but on some level, when I’m watching their celebrity doppelgängers on my television screen… I feel just a little bit closer. The gap between heaven and earth feels smaller, as I am temporarily transported to a different time and place.
We all have to find ways to cope with death. Right now, my comfort food = reruns and old movies. I’ll take it.
Do you have loved ones who remind you of a certain celebrity?