|This isn’t our baby, but the picture makes me think… too much.|
|My sister & I at her baby shower (with her TINY bump!)|
‘Tis the season to pro-create? Seems like many of my friends & family have been shooting babies out of their bodies over the last several months. I loooooove babies, and it’s been so fun to hold these new living angels in my arms… then give them back. I think about adding another one to our family every so often, ok, daily lately, shaddup. It is especially hard since my 2 year old is the same age my oldest was when I became pregnant last time around. The age difference is practically perfect between my girls. And as I sort through the many baby items I’ve accumulated over the last 6 years so I can pass them along to my sister (who is due with her first baby — a girl — in March!) the thought of never feeling another baby move within me, never holding another baby in my arms while they nurse at my breast, never seeing my children bond & fall in love with another sibling as they have so well with each other… well, it makes me a little sad.
|The hubs & I holding our friends’ twins!|
I love having 2 little girls. A family of four seems to be a good fit for the hubs & I. And with my youngest turning 3 in March, the independence both of my girls have developed is a very nice bonus. The hubs & I can actually accomplish things without getting interrupted every 5 minutes. Now we get interrupted every 15-20 minutes, but still… it’s an improvement! We’ve also been able to regain some level of a life over the last year or so. We went to more concerts last year than we’d been to in the last 6 years combined. The hubs & I are playing & singing music together again too; connecting on a deeper level by having the freedom to go out without the kids and feel like, oh, I don’t know, what’s the word? Oh yeah: human. We can still somewhat afford to go out to dinner if we don’t feel like making it, or just need to get out of the house for a couple hours with or without the kids. Many of these things I just listed wouldn’t be happening if we added another baby to our brood right now. Plus, the fact that I’ve just lost 50lbs? Well, I really don’t feel like getting pregnant tomorrow and gaining the weight I just lost over the last 8 months back.
Pros, cons… there are many more.
|My friend Sandy & her new baby: 10 days old|
My last pro/con… whatever you want to call it — is definitely a head-scratcher. As much as I love my 2 sweet & adorable daughters, I’d really love a son. Can’t fully guarantee that if I were to get pregnant again. I’ve done the daughter thing, and I really don’t want any more little girls. I’m pink’d out. Don’t get me wrong, if I got pregnant and had another daughter, I know I’d love her to pieces! I thought Sedona was a boy, and she’s been the light of our world ever since! No complaints there. I’d just love to raise a little boy… his father is one of the greatest men I know, and if we could raise a little boy, watch him develop into an amazing guy similar to the one I married, the world would be a better place. That, and I know my daughters will go through a major Mom-hating phase in their life, and for some reason, I don’t feel that sons do that to their mothers. Selfish, huh? Oh well! It’s very likely it’ll never happen, so it really doesn’t matter.
|Another friend’s sweet baby girl, born on New Year’s Day;
10 days old, a little over 5 lbs!
The tiniest baby I’ve ever held in my arms.
Right now, at this moment in time, I love my life. I love my daughters, and I’m loving all the babies that are coming into my life through friends and family. I will cherish these babies while I have this moment to do so… maybe a night of babysitting my new niece in the not-so-distant future will seal the deal once and for all. Then I’ll be happy I can send her home to my sister & brother-in-law… and nurse my beer instead.