I’ve learned to accept most things in life, but I think that’s among the hardest. When reality takes your close friend or family member to another city/state/country, and the friendship requires much more effort to remain connected. It can be frustrating when it takes more than an hour or two drive to simply hug some of your favorite people… especially when you’re going through a difficult time in your life.
When you have kids, the challenge of keeping up with relationships outside of your 2000 sq ft home become even greater. Then, something, dare I say… crazy-awesome happens, or at least it feels crazy when you have an opportunity to break out of your
jail house. You make a date to get together with your old friend or beloved family member and actually follow through. You finally connect and it’s like no time has passed at all. Sometimes, you simply trade stories on the phone for an hour or two and don’t realize any time has passed at all.
Although I wish I could create a “neighborhood” full of my favorite people, I’m so grateful for the friends & family I have all over the world. Especially those of you who have gone out of your way to reach out to me through phone calls, facebook, twitter, emails, comments on here, texts… seriously. I even appreciate the texts. Trust me, I’m a Momma on the go, sometimes texting is all I have! Just as I typed this, I received a text from my wireless provider telling me I’ve gone over my allotted texts for the month. Shocker.
It’s been over 2 weeks since my sweet little Tenacious D passed away, and we are still taking every day as it comes, trying our best to get back to whatever normal is. It kinda sucks. Some days are definitely more difficult than others. I look forward to the day I can take a shower without completely breaking down. Then again, I do leave my shower feeling a little more refreshed after my big cry. So who knows. There’s no real handbook to grief. Everyone handles it in their own way.
One of my friends said it best last week: “I think this is the hardest part, when reality is knocking and the world still continues to spin.” One of my cousins also shared a very wise statement about putting on my big-girl panties and finding the happy in order to move forward.
These are among the people I wish I lived around the corner from! Those above statements help on so many levels.
To quote the Richard Bach book There’s No Such Place As Far Away: “Can miles truly separate you from friends? If you want to be with someone you love, aren’t you already there?”
I feel so close to many of you, some of you I haven’t seen in years or even met in person… and I have definitely felt the love, support & friendship across many miles. Like the angels in my heart, my living friends & family are in there too. Yes, a neighborhood full of my favorite people would be nice, but I need to remember that I have a heart full of loved ones. I hope that the people who have connected with me & my family over the last 10 months know that they will be embraced by me for a long time to come. Those who haven’t… well, they may not deserve to live in my neighborhood. #thereIsaidit As tough as that is… sometimes, you need experiences like this in order to sift through and cleanse. Life is too short to be wasting your life wondering where or why this or that person seemed to stop giving a shit. Instead, I will cherish all the amazing people I do have in my life. Because ya know what? Moments like this uncover the best in people too, and I have been incredibly blessed & lucky to have people like you — yes, YOU — in my life.
Good riddance, January 2012. Cheers to a Fantastic February!!